pure exhaustion

Well I had my daughters 1st birthday party yesterday and I must say I'm glad it's over because this momma is exhausted! It was a huge success though and I know everyone had a lot of fun including my daughter.  I will never make one of the decorations that I made for her ever again though.  I found it on pinterest and it took me 5 days, 5 trips to Micheal's, around $80, and lots of back breaking yoga moves to complete.  And to top it all off the wind kept blowing it over because the base wasn't heavy enough so it's pretty much destroyed.  Yeah pretty upset about it. I guess you live and learn though.  All in all it was a pretty good day.

On a side note, I finally got a job!  Hopefully things will finally start looking up for me.  The stress has been killing me.

Being broke really sucks...

So I've been looking for a job for well over a year now with no luck. I've almost completely gone through my savings in the process. At this point I'm not sure what I'm going to do. I've already moved back in with my parents. With an infant I really had no choice.  Not that I really mind.  I don't mind my parents at all and my daughter absolutely loves it.  And she's not spoiled at all (notice the sarcasm there).  The problem is I'm becoming increasing depressed with the no job situation.  I question myself everyday wondering what could be wrong with me that no one will hire me.  Deep down I realize that it's the economy but it's still not good for the self esteem.  I need to find something and I need to find it fast.

weight troubles

So I'm beginning to think I might have a thyroid problem.  I've been walking some what regularly since April and have been doing some resistance training every night since June.  I've cut out all sodas and for the most part all fast food.  I'll indulge every now and then but it's rare.  And I have lost absolutely nothing.  Not 1 pound.  Now I'll admit I don't eat the greatest but I would think I would have lost something.  I know that when you have a baby it takes a while for your hormones to get regulated again but my daughter will be 1 next week.  I'm sure by now everything should in theory be back to normal.  I don't know much about thyroid problems and I hate researching things online because I never know how accurate things are.  I hate going to the doctor too but I think it might be about that time.  It's getting to the point that I get very depressed trying to get dressed in the mornings.  I don't have a lot of clothes that fit and with no job I don't have money to invest in new clothing.  I think I need to suck it up and call the doctor.... 

true friendship

What is true friendship? A true friend is someone who is always there for you through think and thin.  They celebrate your accomplishments and feel your pain in moments of sorrow.  They don't judge your insecurities or quirks. They build you up and help you see your true potential. They are not cookie cutter images of yourself.  They do not have to have to same beliefs as you but they should not look down on yours. This past week has been hard for me.  I have had to get rid of some toxic "friendships" who did nothing but bring me down.  To them I was always wrong and my beliefs were stupid and naive.  Now I have always believed that everyone has a right to believe the way they want.  I would never tell someone that what they believe is wrong.  It's simply a matter of opinion and as long as someone is not hurting another or it's not illegal then it should be left alone.  I am first and foremost a Christian and a mother who believes kindness and generosity should come before anything else.  I would never tell anyone how to live their lives and believe in spreading love and kindness where ever I go.  To me that is what being a true friend is.

a few of my favorite things

With Pinterest being such a big hit these days everyone can create their own inspiration boards.  I thought I'd share a few of my favorite things off of some of my boards.  If you want to follow me go here Michellesworld1

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This one especially makes me laugh :)

daughter's first bday

First, I notice people are reading but no one's following....Why oh why?  Anyways...


My daughters first birthday is coming up and I can hardly wait.  I'm having a Minnie Mouse theme because well she absolutely loves her. When ever Mickey Mouse Club House comes on you better not be in her way or she will literally push you out of the way to see it.  I've been looking online for ideas and I've come across a few things to try and make.  I'm hoping it all comes together and looks great.  Here are just a few of the things I've found.  All images have come from catchmyparty.com

I will post pictures of the whole party (minus my daughter because, well I don't want her face all over the internet) after the event.

an irritation and diet pills post

First I have to get something off my chest.  I've been interviewing at several salons recently and there was one in particular that I really wanted to work at.  They called me in 5 separate times.  Twice to interview and then I shadowed a stylist on 2 different days.  They basically implied that I had the job but the owner told me that she wouldn't be able to actually start the hiring process until she got back from vacation.  Now this went on for 4 weeks.  Well I was told that if I hadn't heard by today that I should call them so I did.  And they told me that they were very sorry but they were not hiring at this time.  Really?! You're not hiring? Then why did you string me along for 4 weeks, bring me in 5 different times and waste my time.  Not to mention that I had been offered a position at another salon that I have been waiting to hear from this salon before I answered.  I'm hoping at this point I will still be able to work for the other salon and that they did not give it to someone else.  I haven't been able to find work in over a year and really need a job so thanks a lot stupid salon!

Ok now that I have that off my chest on to other things....

Has anyone out there ever tried any of the many diet pills out there and if so how do you feel about them?  I've been thinking about trying one but am a little leery about them.  There's so many on the market these days from the NV diet, to phencol, to sensa, that it's hard to determine which is just hype and which is genuine.